Disappointments...

How silly i am...

I always tell other people that i cannot give my trust to anyone easily since i was hurt by my loved one long time ago...

But i actually secretly give up my trust to some people...

I cherish the people i care and i love...

And that's why i am so care about everything...

I will not torture myself since one does not cherish my efforts...

I will leave and eliminate that particular person out of my world...

I don't mind i only have a few friends with me...

I used to it...

If i have no friend then i will try to survive by myself...

I AM STUBBORN...

I know...

But i thank God that He gives me a lot of Angels around me...

I actually receive friends' goodness and warmness when they are around...

Sometimes...

I rather i am blind or really deaf so that i will not see or listen the dark side of this world...

Many people are selfish...

Including me...

Many people are back-stabbers...

Many people did wrongs but they are not aware of...

I am scare of this kind of people...

Therefore i always keep a secure distance between me and people...

So that i will not get hurt...

Deep in heart...

A deep disappointment is swallowing me...

This is the price that i have to pay for...

For i trusted the particular one...

I told myself i have to treat people well...

Not to harm them...

Even i do not like the person i will also keep a secure distance with the person...

To avoid myself from hurting them...

I will only show the real me and the warm me in front of my love ones...

I really do not know who to give my trust to...

Realities are always hurting...

I thank God for giving me a chance to see who are those worthy of my trust...

I am trying to make things right...

But the darkness of this world is far more devil that i can handle...

Am so disappointed and heartache...

Will not shed a tear for the people who are not worth for my tears...

God is justice...

I already did my part and did my best...

I will leave the rest to God...

Only God knows our hearts...

Deep inside of our hearts...

I should not judge...

Because God is the judge...